#reverb10 – December 19

December 19 – Healing. What healed you this year? Was it sudden, or a drip-by-drip evolution? How would you like to be healed in 2011? (Author: Leonie Allan)

I’m still working at facing grief head on and healing through the searing but thorough pain that my therapist tells me will do the job.  Instead, I have waited for the slow drip of time to heal me in all things.  I’ve waited for the scar tissue that only time can provide, to cover over the biggest hurts with its tough, protective coating.

In the coming year I’m hoping that I’ll stop feeling so invisible; that the sense of being sort of translucent and unseen will stop feeling so chronic.  I’d like to grieve this feeling that has been with me for so long, having finally recognized it for what it is–and then I’d like to be done with it.  I’d like to have a “Sister, thou art healed!” moment and move on to some other pain already.