#reverb – February

One month into 2011, what question(s) are you living? Are there any prompts/questions that arose during #reverb10 that are still resonating in your life? Are you living new questions?

I feel like the easiest way to answer this is to say what’s changed for me.  I don’t know if it was the reverb process or if I just managed to turn a corner after all these years, but something has finally shifted.  I was aware of the shift pretty quickly after it occurred, but what galvanized it in my mind was when a friend asked how I was doing; my answer was an unequivocal “good!”

There is nothing tangible in my life that anyone could point to and say “that’s changed,” but somehow my perspective has.  For the first time ever, in my life, I feel like there is potential for real, tangible change.  There is a sense of direction that I have right now that guides where I put my energy and it’s a great feeling.  I remember when I used to go to church and there was a sense that the needs of the kingdom of God guided all my decisions.  For years after I went the way of agnosticism, I really missed having any kind of guiding principle for my life.  I feel like I have that again, but not in a rigid, soul-destroying way, but a fun, free, fall a million times and just keep getting back up kind of way.

This is not to say that I don’t have bad days–today was kinda one of them–but it does always seem like the next day, or even the next hour, can be better.  A month into 2011, I don’t have new year’s resolutions, just a sense of direction and purpose that feels right for me.